it might be said, are based on signs, but these signs do not directly evoke things.

Ah Farid! How I wish I was just able to translate what you just told me, How I miss you, fafar, Ghazal, Roham and my dear instant doubling friend in Tehran,[the experience of self-destruction an image of whom I’ve never seen or talked to.] How I miss Khorshid in Sohrevardi street. I would say; we are the 7 wonders. To make it short: [You guys still check on me when I cry.] in 10 years I’ve never had anyone to check on me [in west] when I cry. let me strain the custard in to a bowl by translating your words in to a beautifull english language world, […] so that we can all taste something sweet, we all need some sugar in here as my blood pressure is on the floor tonight.
[Mom and Dad are divorcing after all these years,[…] eventualy
[I said; I’ve isolted myself making art. Farid said; so? you are a lunatic crazy girl, then he continues; people come, injure you and take away your wound with themselves as well.]
Just came to my mom’s, She has cooked me some lentil soup, Mom is the only creature who acknowledged It’s been a long time that I don’t eat meat anymore.
the fact that I’m sleeping in my jean, woolen hat and my gloves says Los Angeles is so cold. My fingers are freezing.
back ground music ~ Philip Glass – Methamorphosis
ps; it might be said, are based on signs, but these signs do not directly evoke things.  “Ferdinand de Saussure”

I see unicorn everywhere

…the same way I walk in the sidewalk everyday, the old lady, the jungle behind this huge complex, the coyotes, those who are walking  with dogs…Sometimes I feel I’m so lucky for having a cat not that I don’t like dogs but for if I had a dog I could have never walked him in my pajamas, Imagine if I were your neighbour then every morning  you would have to see a female version of a [Gigolo] escorting her dog while passing by you. The more I look the more I reflect on the fact that no one really walks in Los Angeles except for homeless people, Tourists and those who has dogs.
[…] For instance I’m burning while I’m walking, […] so if you don’t see the fire and the coal you think there is no fire? […] just because you don’t see the trace, […] the trace that you are not able to see, […] what if I’m walking and burning ,[…] how far you can ignore the fire? […] how many ashes on the sidewalk been disappeared? […] or let’s imagine a few thousand ashes on the bridge  being disappeared (everyday), […] how many unicorns on cupcakes you have ignored? […] or even ask yourself will those traces ever disappear? […] so I’m burning again. […]
I smell fire.
[The Unicorn is green.]


A Thousand Instant Doubling

Dad said she got rid of the heavy responsibility

I cried


Mom said, She has nothing to go back to Tehran for

One of my friends said he is excited

to see what happens next

Funny I cried


My brother didn’t say a word, my brother is disappeared


I paint ocean when the nights are slow

I was painting a green ocean the ocean has turned in to black


Mitra is right, this too shall pass

I’m struggling to pass

Sometimes when the night gets slow

I’ll take sleeping pills

No ocean is left

Funny I cry

I ditch it all to cry